I really do finally feel home. I'm sitting in our new place, exhausted with a mug of homemade apple sauce just enjoying my new house. There are going to be so many memories in this place... It's small and beautiful in every way. We already cooked for friends and had people over to watch football and we haven't even slept here yet. When we do it we do it up big. Plus OU is in the midst of putting the screws to Texas Tech. Woo for that.
I finally feel like me again, I have a place to call home and it feels like home. It really feels like home. And it will only feel more so like home.
I have nothing else to say, I am totally at peace. I never want to leave. :-)
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Tuesday Night Update.
Well here we are, Tuesday night. We are not in our house at all yet, although it's completely finished. Red tape will get you every time. There is a good chance that we will be able to move in this weekend. But we won't close until next week, but I suppose closings get pushed back often. Am I pissed??? I mean... I was supposed to be in last weekend and close last friday... but no dice. Whatever, it will close eventually...I hope. I know... it will...
The Penny's life is moving along otherwise. I am sitting on my couch after some Italian takeout from Papa Gjorgio's here in town. I also had a pudding cup. I'm trying to get my calcium intake up for bebe'. I am watching the biggest loser, which is pretty much my favorite show on air right now. I love top chef but we don't get bravo in Ada, or comedy central. Vicki is crazy, if you watch biggest loser you know what I mean... totally. We eat a lot of takeout these days, we are in transistion and our kitchen is barely functional for us so I don't really have to motivation to cook. Also I never know what my pregnant tastebuds want for dinner until the moment of eating, so takeout is a safer bet. We keep it healthy though.
Kel is in Norman right now, he will be there for the whole evening. So I am all solo tonight, which isn't so bad. The heat is out in our house, so I also went out to buy a space heater because I am frigging freezing. I might start working on some christmas cards. I am totally for sure going to crack on on NBC programming, so sue me, I know my brain would be better of with other things... lol... I'll get to those things.
Much Love to you reader.
Leanne
The Penny's life is moving along otherwise. I am sitting on my couch after some Italian takeout from Papa Gjorgio's here in town. I also had a pudding cup. I'm trying to get my calcium intake up for bebe'. I am watching the biggest loser, which is pretty much my favorite show on air right now. I love top chef but we don't get bravo in Ada, or comedy central. Vicki is crazy, if you watch biggest loser you know what I mean... totally. We eat a lot of takeout these days, we are in transistion and our kitchen is barely functional for us so I don't really have to motivation to cook. Also I never know what my pregnant tastebuds want for dinner until the moment of eating, so takeout is a safer bet. We keep it healthy though.
Kel is in Norman right now, he will be there for the whole evening. So I am all solo tonight, which isn't so bad. The heat is out in our house, so I also went out to buy a space heater because I am frigging freezing. I might start working on some christmas cards. I am totally for sure going to crack on on NBC programming, so sue me, I know my brain would be better of with other things... lol... I'll get to those things.
Much Love to you reader.
Leanne
Friday, November 7, 2008
Big Beautiful Heartwrenching life
Kel and I may be back to sharing music and life again, we've been cheap and well we don't really get radio in ada, per say.
Life is and always will be a huge crazy mess, I think. This uncertainty may very well prove my opening statement to be true but, true or not there isn't much I can do about the tidiness of life. Not at the gut level anyway. I can put the scissors back in their correct place to reduce the "have a hanging sweater string and need to cut it on my way out the door" madness. But the straight up messiness and uncertainty of life. Right now I feel like I see where all the puzzle pieces of my life go. How they fit. Everything I ever wanted on the horizon, the the practically dawn horizon. Brand new house, career for kel, baby on the way, two respectable and functioning cars, no credit card debt, etc. Two days ago, with a perfect ultrasound picture in one hand and a cup of half-caf coffee in the other I sat at my breakfast table solo over a grapefruit and felt deeply and sickyl empty. I felt like the emtiness inside me extended out past the bottom of my feet, under the floorboards and halfway to china. I almost hit my knees, I would have killed to have a best friend to scoop me up, someone to make me laugh, to complete the part of me that feels so far away. Family. My family. They continue on without me in Michigan, i miss them and it physically hurts.
How in the midst of everything I thought I ever wanted do I feel so empty handed? I think I lost myself in all of it, in pulling stuff together, soul was sacrificed. I haven't been selfless, somehow in loosing myself I still managed to selfish. This is all starting to seem like a really tangled up necklace chain. You know when you want to wear a necklace and you realize that in the jewlery box it has somehow tied itself to another necklace in about 24 knots? The sort of knot mess when you are sure you have to send it to a knot specialist to ever be able to wear it again. In your despair you try a knot, and you cuss as the clasp gets caught up in 4 loops, but somehow it all comes apart in a neat pendant controlled straightness. And you put it on and run out the door feeling well accesorized.
I am just taking this tangled mess of metal out of the jewlery box and realizing I have to undo a whole bunch of knots. But in all honesty I shall be wearing my shiny diamondy soul soon. But today, with hope on the horizon I feel like I have a mess again.
Sorry about all the bad metaphors. Will you still be my friend? What if I left these cool lyric ex excerpts?
"So maybe you could walk with me a while
And maybe I could rest beneath your smile
Everybody stumbles sometimes and needs a hand to hold
'Cause it's a long trip alone"
"What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilage to carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!
Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
Oh what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!"
Ive looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
Its loves illusions I recall
I really dont know love at all
Life is and always will be a huge crazy mess, I think. This uncertainty may very well prove my opening statement to be true but, true or not there isn't much I can do about the tidiness of life. Not at the gut level anyway. I can put the scissors back in their correct place to reduce the "have a hanging sweater string and need to cut it on my way out the door" madness. But the straight up messiness and uncertainty of life. Right now I feel like I see where all the puzzle pieces of my life go. How they fit. Everything I ever wanted on the horizon, the the practically dawn horizon. Brand new house, career for kel, baby on the way, two respectable and functioning cars, no credit card debt, etc. Two days ago, with a perfect ultrasound picture in one hand and a cup of half-caf coffee in the other I sat at my breakfast table solo over a grapefruit and felt deeply and sickyl empty. I felt like the emtiness inside me extended out past the bottom of my feet, under the floorboards and halfway to china. I almost hit my knees, I would have killed to have a best friend to scoop me up, someone to make me laugh, to complete the part of me that feels so far away. Family. My family. They continue on without me in Michigan, i miss them and it physically hurts.
How in the midst of everything I thought I ever wanted do I feel so empty handed? I think I lost myself in all of it, in pulling stuff together, soul was sacrificed. I haven't been selfless, somehow in loosing myself I still managed to selfish. This is all starting to seem like a really tangled up necklace chain. You know when you want to wear a necklace and you realize that in the jewlery box it has somehow tied itself to another necklace in about 24 knots? The sort of knot mess when you are sure you have to send it to a knot specialist to ever be able to wear it again. In your despair you try a knot, and you cuss as the clasp gets caught up in 4 loops, but somehow it all comes apart in a neat pendant controlled straightness. And you put it on and run out the door feeling well accesorized.
I am just taking this tangled mess of metal out of the jewlery box and realizing I have to undo a whole bunch of knots. But in all honesty I shall be wearing my shiny diamondy soul soon. But today, with hope on the horizon I feel like I have a mess again.
Sorry about all the bad metaphors. Will you still be my friend? What if I left these cool lyric ex excerpts?
"So maybe you could walk with me a while
And maybe I could rest beneath your smile
Everybody stumbles sometimes and needs a hand to hold
'Cause it's a long trip alone"
"What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilage to carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!
Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
Oh what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!"
Ive looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
Its loves illusions I recall
I really dont know love at all
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
Oh It's all new.
Well it's all new, everything. I had this thought as I was folding clothes today, no more uniforms for either of us. That's quite nice. Kel can wear whatever he wants to work, and he does. I started today at the bank and most of my clothes are perfectly perfect for the job. I start training at the WalMart branch tomorrow. That won't be permanent, I'll be at a new branch as soon as it opens which will be nice since I hate WalMart and working there forevers would be... suckity.
Our house will be ready on November 14, I can't wait until it's ready, there will be so much to do when we get in. Decorating and landscaping (next spring though) and all sorts of other things.
And for those who don't already know, I am pregnant and expecting a bebe, who we call bebe next spring... probably like June 1. I have my first visit to the doctor on Nov 3, it was supposed to be this Thurs but insurance doesn't click in until Nov 1 so, Nov 3 it is!
Things are alright right now, I just feel inbetween with the house thing, but that's minimal.
We had a fantastic weekend with the Hensons, I love them, they are simply wonderful. I feel at home when I am over there and it's just such a peaceful reflaxing breeze. This weekend was also Kel's birthday and it was wonderful to be with friends and family over tasty food, when tasty food feels good in my tummy, and it doesn't always feel that way.
Well that is my random update.
Our house will be ready on November 14, I can't wait until it's ready, there will be so much to do when we get in. Decorating and landscaping (next spring though) and all sorts of other things.
And for those who don't already know, I am pregnant and expecting a bebe, who we call bebe next spring... probably like June 1. I have my first visit to the doctor on Nov 3, it was supposed to be this Thurs but insurance doesn't click in until Nov 1 so, Nov 3 it is!
Things are alright right now, I just feel inbetween with the house thing, but that's minimal.
We had a fantastic weekend with the Hensons, I love them, they are simply wonderful. I feel at home when I am over there and it's just such a peaceful reflaxing breeze. This weekend was also Kel's birthday and it was wonderful to be with friends and family over tasty food, when tasty food feels good in my tummy, and it doesn't always feel that way.
Well that is my random update.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Great new breakfast recipe
Alright, this may be strange but I would like to integrate some recipes I love into my blog. Because I love cooking and healthy eating and sharing is good stuff. I came up with this because I had some left over Neufchatel Cream Cheese from a pasta primavera we made Tuesday. And I bought two packages of flat out wraps this week because I had a coupon. Also I can't stand always having just ceral every day, I've got to mix it up. If you have not yet tried the flat out wraps I highly recommend them. They are generally displayed somewhere in your deli area. They have a significant amount of fiber and protein and are very soft. So I got creative and this is what I came up with, they were VERY tasty. Sorry, Jill I already realize this is not for the lactose intolerant :-(
Breakfast Apple Wraps (serves 2)
This recipe can very obviously be doubled, etc to fit the number you are feeding
2 Whole Grain Flat out wraps (or other whole wheat tortilla)
1 Apple, thinly sliced (your favorite type)
4 Tbsp Neufchatel Cream Cheese (or other low fat Cream Cheese)
2 Tbsp Chopped Walnuts
2 Tsp of Cinnamon Sugar mix
Cut up your apple into thin slices, peel the slices and set aside. Spread the soft cheese onto the wraps, 1 Tbsp on each leave the bottom inch bare. Add your apples evenly to each wrap. Sprinkle your cinnamon sugar mixture onto each wrap over the apples. Sprinkle on your walnuts and wrap each wrap up carefully by first folding up the left side and then rolling from bottom to top. You often need to tuck in a little excess wrap when you get to the top.
Serve immediately.
Calories 300
Protein 14g
Fiber 10g 55% DRV
Fat 18g 25% DRV
I did a basic caloric analysis on this recipe and it's low in calories for a full breakfast and fairly balanced giving you one grain, 1/2 fruit, and a good amount of fiber and protein right away in the morning. It does seem to be a lot of fat but most of that comes from the walnuts with is a healthy source of fat.
Breakfast Apple Wraps (serves 2)
This recipe can very obviously be doubled, etc to fit the number you are feeding
2 Whole Grain Flat out wraps (or other whole wheat tortilla)
1 Apple, thinly sliced (your favorite type)
4 Tbsp Neufchatel Cream Cheese (or other low fat Cream Cheese)
2 Tbsp Chopped Walnuts
2 Tsp of Cinnamon Sugar mix
Cut up your apple into thin slices, peel the slices and set aside. Spread the soft cheese onto the wraps, 1 Tbsp on each leave the bottom inch bare. Add your apples evenly to each wrap. Sprinkle your cinnamon sugar mixture onto each wrap over the apples. Sprinkle on your walnuts and wrap each wrap up carefully by first folding up the left side and then rolling from bottom to top. You often need to tuck in a little excess wrap when you get to the top.
Serve immediately.
Calories 300
Protein 14g
Fiber 10g 55% DRV
Fat 18g 25% DRV
I did a basic caloric analysis on this recipe and it's low in calories for a full breakfast and fairly balanced giving you one grain, 1/2 fruit, and a good amount of fiber and protein right away in the morning. It does seem to be a lot of fat but most of that comes from the walnuts with is a healthy source of fat.
Monday, October 6, 2008
A big purchase
Well Guys, it may seem quick but we bought a house! We we are in Contract to buy it we don't close until Nov 14 but we are excited about the process. It is not yet finished, we get to pick out all the details ourselves, flooring and tile and wall color etc. It's pretty stinking exciting! It's on the outskirts of town on Homer Road and sits on a little over a half acre with a pond and some trees! I'm excited and ready to move in like yesterday. I am so happy to have a place to call permanent home for a while. To put down some roots and familiarize myself with its nooks and crannies, to sit on the back porch and watch the sunset and enjoy marshmallows over perhaps a chiminea? Plant a garden and flowers and watch the years grow them. Dear Lord bless our new home and all the exciting things that these new walls will see.
Yay.
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